Thursday, May 27, 2010

A Grateful Heart

I would like to say thank you to EVERYONE wishing me well and sending prayers during these past few months. Yes, it has been the most CHALLENGING time ever. But, I know what I'm capable of and it's a heck of a lot more than I thought.

Your prayers and support have meant the world to me. Without you, I would still be curled up in a ball in the corner of my Commons room crying. I pushed through and now I'm at this amazing crossroads and I couldn't be more thankful.

A few months ago, I thought I had no options and would be forced to work at the pool forever (not that being a Lifeguard isn't a rewarding job, it's just not for me anymore). Not only did I finish off my schooling for the year, but I also found an amazing promotion at work and now I'm being forced to decide between a plethora of new schools to transfer to.

Yes, you heard me right - I have to decide AGAIN. I'm pretty anxious about this decision because I made a huge mistake last year and don't want to do that again. In typical Becky fashion, I'm making flow charts and decision trees (thanks BSEN 291) to help guide me. A huge part of me is leaning towards Boston because, well it's Boston and I love it there. I already have a HUGE support network in the Boston area and know I would be taken care of and supported there. But, Oklahoma and Texas sound great too. Oklahoma would only be a 3 hour drive from Mallory and a 4.5 hour drive from Rach.

So I'm going to sit here and chew off what little nails I have left while I think about this. Feel free to offer suggestions. I'm lacking a 'Teira on our couch' in my life and could use some feedback.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

summer tunes

I'll be the first to admit that I have the most eclectic taste in music. From Metric to Beyonce, I'm all over the place. But, that also means my play lists normally have a tune or two that everyone can enjoy. With summer quickly approaching, it's time for me to put together the ever-essential summer play list. A patio isn't a patio without a few indie hits. Here's what I'm cranking out on itunes these days...

Metric - Grow Up and Blow Away

Stars - Fixed

The Kooks - Seaside

Darrelle London - Understand

Sia - Clap your hands

The Ting Tings - Great DJ

Broken Social Scene - Backyards

Tiesto ft. Emily Haines - Knock you out

Mika - Any Other World

Leona Lewis - Run

Metric - Help I'm Alive

Snow Patrol - Crack the Shutters

City and Colour - Hello, I'm in Delaware

Meiko - Boys with Girlfriends

Little Boots - Remedy

Kings of Leon - On Call

Stars - Your Ex-Lover is Dead

Tiesto ft. Tegan & Sara - Feel it in my bones

Solange Knowles - I decided

Soho Dolls - Stripper

Rihanna - Hard

MGMT - Kids

M.I.A - Paper Planes

The Gossip - Jealous Girls

The Kooks - Sway

Friday, May 21, 2010

Maybe, this time...

Most of my friends know, I'm a big believer in fate. I believe nothing happens just because and we are all placed in certain situations for a reason. My friends will also tell you that I have a tendency to slap fate in the face, hard. It'll try and send me in one direction and I'll kick and scream until I can force myself to go the other way. Apparently, I missed the lesson on listening in Kindergarten.

Anyways, I have to start making some big decisions (AGAIN). Like real-life big kid decisions that everyone dreads. I've already had to make some pretty life altering changes to my life this year so I guess I should be used to this. This time though, I'm going to be a lot more open and communicative. I'm not going to sit in my room, throw all the law school brochures on the ground and pick one. No. That didn't work so well this year so I'm going to try a different approach. A little background would probably be necessary for you to understand the choice I'm about to make.

Last year around February, I started receiving early admission decisions from the law schools I applied to. I applied to hundreds of schools because I had this ginormous fear that no one would want me. Definitely not the first time that's happened. Regardless, one of those schools was Oklahoma. No, I didn't just apply there because I thought it would be so ridiculously hilarious to tell people this little blonde Canuck went to school in Oklahoma. They actually sought me out in high school, speaking to me about a variety of their athletics programs - including soccer, swimming and rowing. I had just had my second knee surgery and was no where near willing to throw all my eggs into the sports scholarship basket so I passed and went to UofC instead. Good call on my part. My knee stopped working after second semester.

When it came time to apply to law schools, I was so freaked out about getting in that I applied to Oklahoma again. After harassing the poor Canada Post man for weeks, my first acceptance letter finally arrived and it was from Oklahoma. I couldn't believe it. I was going to law school. I ran back into the condo and started jumping up and down. Someone finally realized that this Canuck was ready for her chance, ready to take on the world. And then Teira started jumping up and down with me. We immediately sat down on the couch and started googling everything Oklahoma. Food, stores and most We were living in Siberia and needed some place warm to dream about. I wasn't even going to wait to hear back from any schools, I was going to Oklahoma.
Well, the Oklahoma love-fest vanished and as soon as more acceptance letters started flowing in, my dreams of skipping through the streets of Tulsa gradually disappeared. Teira and I started googling bigger and better places...and I eventually rejected Oklahoma's offer. There was this little part of me that thought I was making a mistake. I mean, the school offered me acceptance twice now and both times I was turning them down? This was me slapping fate in the face. Teira listened to my rants and we both knew my parents weren't really keen on me trekking down to Oklahoma City for 4 years. At the end of the day, I thought Virginia was the place for me.
Exactly one year later and I'm back where I started with Oklahoma being my first acceptance letter again. I have one year under my belt but I'm pretty sure none of my credits will transfer so I'm literally back at ground zero. But, being a strong believer in fate - I think this past year blessed me with one particular gift: Rachel. If you told me that I had to go through that entire experience again just to find Rachel, I would do it over and over and over. Sure, I had my heart torn in two (it's still pretty damaged) and met people I would rather not meet ever again...but through it all, I always had Rachel. If she's the gift fate granted me, then so be it. Every tear I've cried this year (and trust me, there have been a LOT of them) she's wiped away. She listens to every French Canadian rant I have, offering me words of comfort. She's watched boys plow me down with a truck and she's always been there to pick me back up again. This has been the toughest year of my life and the only reason I'm even standing is because of her. If she's all I am taking away from this past year, I am perfectly content with that (even ecstatic)!!

So, instead of waiting for my acceptance letters - I've decided to make a decision from the heart. I've turned Oklahoma down twice before, I'm not going to brush off fate a third time. Maybe this time, I'll stay... Oklahoma, here I come!!

Sunday, May 16, 2010


We have ONE life

ONE love

Go out and make a difference